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Engine33
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12-05-12 11:32 AM - Post#1490670    



Just found out about 20 min ago that a friend of mine killed himself today. He and I knew each other from the fire service, and his Dad is one of my chiefs, and his two brothers are firefighters as well.

My fire company was called out to a vehicle fire around 430 in the morning, but we got cancelled, but it turns out he lit himself on fire and burnt to death inside his car.

He had been in trouble for a while with drugs etc. but I never thought he'd kill himself. He and I hadnt been close for a while, but I feel like shit. And i feel soo bad for his family.

 
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12-05-12 11:50 AM - Post#1490671    


    In response to Engine33

Sorry to hear that. And sorry to go here but... lit himself on fire? Man, sounds like he had a lot of pain in his life.


 
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12-05-12 12:08 PM - Post#1490676    


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  • Engine33 Said:
Just found out about 20 min ago that a friend of mine killed himself today. He and I knew each other from the fire service, and his Dad is one of my chiefs, and his two brothers are firefighters as well.

My fire company was called out to a vehicle fire around 430 in the morning, but we got cancelled, but it turns out he lit himself on fire and burnt to death inside his car.

He had been in trouble for a while with drugs etc. but I never thought he'd kill himself. He and I hadnt been close for a while, but I feel like shit. And i feel soo bad for his family.






Sorry to hear it Engine.

Is there a higher than normal suicide rate in your industry? I would think there would be for first responders.
I see orange people.


 
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12-05-12 12:27 PM - Post#1490679    


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Sorry to hear bud. You're a good dude and I'm sure he was too. I hope you guys are doing alright.

Thanks again.
"It is not our fault that the world is bad, and we do not want to die changing it. We want to live- that is all."

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Engine33
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12-05-12 12:32 PM - Post#1490681    


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Thanks guys, i appreciate it.

Spike - we are volunteers, so I'd say it's not the same as career firefighters, but we do have more stress than the average person.

He was just heading in the wrong direction all the time, and couldn't get straightened out. He had some substance abuse issues, which I believe was the key factor in this.

Edited by Engine33 on 12-05-12 12:33 PM. Reason for edit: No reason given.
 
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12-05-12 12:40 PM - Post#1490684    


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You're a volunteer? What do you do for money? How much longer until they hire you as paid?
"It is not our fault that the world is bad, and we do not want to die changing it. We want to live- that is all."

-Tadeusz Borowski


 
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12-05-12 01:30 PM - Post#1490689    


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Sorry to hear the bad news, Engine.
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12-05-12 01:34 PM - Post#1490694    


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  • Tim- Said:
You're a volunteer? What do you do for money? How much longer until they hire you as paid?



My department is all volunteer. My company(my department is made up of 4 companies) used to pay us $10 per hour for fires and hazmat which was a nice little bonus, since we all do it for free.

I'm the Fire & Safety Marshal at a state mental hospital in PA for my career Tim.

 
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12-05-12 01:38 PM - Post#1490697    


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My condolences, E33.

I've been in similar situations and have always felt terribly guilty, as in "could I have done something or said something or been there more to prevent this" and it just sucks.

-PR
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12-05-12 03:20 PM - Post#1490723    


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Sorry to hear that Engine. Hope you and yours are get through this ok.


 
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12-05-12 03:49 PM - Post#1490733    


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My condolences, E33.

I've been in similar situations and have always felt terribly guilty, as in "could I have done something or said something or been there more to prevent this" and it just sucks.

-PR





I can't say it better. My thoughts exactly.


 
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12-05-12 03:51 PM - Post#1490734    


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Sorry to hear Engine.


 
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12-05-12 03:53 PM - Post#1490735    


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That really sucks!It touches us all engine in some way!


 
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12-05-12 03:53 PM - Post#1490736    


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Damn, sorry for you Engine. What a horrible ordeal. Hang tough man.


 
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12-05-12 04:50 PM - Post#1490753    


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  • Engine33 Said:
  • Tim- Said:
You're a volunteer? What do you do for money? How much longer until they hire you as paid?



My department is all volunteer. My company(my department is made up of 4 companies) used to pay us $10 per hour for fires and hazmat which was a nice little bonus, since we all do it for free.

I'm the Fire & Safety Marshal at a state mental hospital in PA for my career Tim.





Ah, gotcha. I thought you mentioned something about working in a hospital. Wasn't sure.

Don't mean to spam up your thread
"It is not our fault that the world is bad, and we do not want to die changing it. We want to live- that is all."

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12-05-12 05:47 PM - Post#1490762    


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God Bless You and his family. What you guys do for communities is beyond the word thanks.
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12-05-12 05:50 PM - Post#1490763    


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Sorry to hear Engine. Best wishes.

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12-05-12 06:22 PM - Post#1490769    


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RIP to your buddy, Engine. I'm very sorry to hear that.
"I may be an emotional cripple but am becoming a strong, burly fucking hunk of a man."

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12-05-12 06:43 PM - Post#1490770    


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Tough news Engine. Thoughts your way and especially to his family who will have all kinds of tough feelings dealing with a suicide of a loved one.

Also kudos to you for your service. We have a volunteer fire department in my city and they are all top notch guys!
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12-05-12 07:32 PM - Post#1490775    


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Thoughts to you and the family. RIP.


 
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